THe PeTitIon tO kiLl oNe'S seLf.

'Cos everytime I see you
I get this feeling
I feel the sensation running in my veins
I'm flying on an angel's wing

I loved you since the day we met
But when you left, I just wept
I love you, even more than you bet
if only my love would be let..?

I love u more than anyword i can sae
I love u more than any actions i can take
I will be rite here loving u till the end
My Life is dedicated to u...

I think of the day when I see your face
Thinking of myself as an utter disgrace
I cry in the night and sob my tears
You are always with me when I'm having all these fears

Will you be the one to save me?

iT's ALl aBOuT yeR, BabY.

Name: TuRtlE

Age: 16

Homeland: I goT nO hOmElaNd,No PlaCe WhR i bElONg anYmORe. DEAD!!!

Schools: Yu neNg pRi...BedOk GreEn seC...

Wishlist: ***StAY wIf CryStAl tAn 4eVA***,neW mP3,O lVl cErT,mOre cLoTheS N PanTs,NEw hP,MoRe MOneY$$$

Loves: CryStaL taN kAi Li:D,brOthErs N sIsTerS,bLAcK,bAdmiNtOn,baSketBalL,dIstUrb pEopLe,pLay,CrAps,mOneY $$$

Hates: BEtrAyerS,BaCkstaBbeRs,bAstaRds,BlAckiEs,LiArs,soMe TeaCheRs

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

quit sch recently...regretted cos 1 of my brother still inside...n i realli miss him...dun sae i m gay ...brothers for 2 yrs but saw him everydae except on sat n sun...2yrs is short...but we r close...retain together...same class...gd things we share...if suffer we suffer together...he covered me when i m in trouble...i did the same...we got punish together...although sometimes not his fault...had alot great times...ji siao here n there...whoeva get into trouble outside,the other person will come dwn...wun ps...my o lvl is this yr n his too...i m in private sch...he is still in bedok green sec...i think i wun get the chance to see him everydae...or every mth...our schedule everydae is like packed...n when i m free...he is not...when he is free...i m not...like wtf!!! when i told him i quit sch...can hear tt he was sad too...asked me to go sch up till now...sorry...i cant now...although we cant meet...i will rmb u,u will too i noe...free then we come out...sure got time de...i nv had a brother so close b4...other brother is close too...this is more closer...even closer than my real brother...sad! nvrm...jus rmb each other...nyting happen i will oso help u de...mus take care...brothers 4 life!!! HUAT AR!!! Another thing is my 'flower'...i treat u so well now...y mus u make me so fan...i already been irritated by so many things ler...u noe it well...y wan to treat me this way...loved u so much...fetch u home after u knock off almost everydae...treat u eat...or wad...jus btr alot more than we stead...y r u doing this...wad u wan??? WO HEN FAN!!! said u still love me wan w8 me change...then y wan make me so pek chek...i m tolerating alot of things ler...last time de me sure on the spot give the person jia lat jia lat de...cos i promise u...dun chuay tai ji...then i do things ur way...then...now abit jiu angry...then dun wan tok to me...ask u angry? u sae no...pls...can hear...i not stupid...n no gd nite sms...or wad...jus hiu lan...u nid me n u wanna see me n fetch u home frm work...meet u 4 dinner or lunch...i did it...u didnt sae,but i noe...n u admit. then angry jus hiu lan me...i like being used u noe ma! i dun mind de actually...but i buay tahan...u noe i got how FAN anot!!! i going to break dwn ler u noe ma...nvrm...4get it...u,my mum,my dad,my grandmother n my whole family...u all carry on...i sure go buangkok green medical park...i wun die...fang xin...

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
10:19 AM

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Saturday, January 12, 2008

sianded...wad stupid interview sia...last 2nd question like wtf!!! make me sad...pui!!! xia suay...ask me wad have i lost...of course lose impt ppl la...then...i go 18syh...piah zhui...do lan jiao tai ji...then...the close ones sure sad de ma...then of course will leave me la...ppl usually tells me...do all these things not gd...ask me dun regret...i dun care...i dun think tt much...when u r doing sumthing u wan...would u think so much abt the consequences...u wun. Regretting now is like abit too late...if change earlier bu shi gen hao...nvrm...huo gai wan...blame myself la...darling left me...i didnt cherish her until now...XIAO TURTLE!!! na bei pua ji bye...knn...ki hong gan btr la...lan jiao lang lai de...lan gan la...xiao turtle fuck off la...ccb...jia bah kah eng lan ar...go do all these lan jiao tai ji...aiya...fuck off la...knn...

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
12:23 AM

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Monday, December 17, 2007

lols...like...wtf...haha...i onli nid 1 not so much...omg...like kua chang la...duno zhun ma de...haha...FTW!!! i nid 1 n tts enuff...YOU*** r my onli 1 n i wun 4get u...4eva oso wun...no matter how i change...bad to worst...or bad to gd...fat or thin...or wadsoeva...i wun 4get u...i dun hate u...i dun regret 01/01/07...i dun regret i Jio u...haha...01/01/07 07:11am!!! huat ar!!! all the best...LOVING YOU DARLING!!! Muacks!!!

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
7:47 AM

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Darling...hope u see this post...n reply me asap... honestly...i dun wish to break...so pls...u noe wad i wan...my both sisters have already talk to u ler...u cannot leave me de...i going thru my o lvls...i nid u to accompany me...i nid ur encouragememt...ur support...n not worries...i realli wu xim to change de...but i cant do it all by myself...i nid u to help me...u r my stead...or rather laopo...if not who is going to help...onli u noe me the best...no other brother or sister understands me the best ler...u r important in my life...i realli got no mood to do anything without u...n whenever i think of it...i m seriously veri scared...veri xin ku u noe ma...i realli going crazy...pls... yes...i deserved it...i agree...but i realli cannot take it...i no strength to carry on...like i said...without u...i aint complete...its true...i realli care abt u...n i truly love u alot darling...since the dae we tok...i realli put in 100% effort to change everything....n i tried halfway n u dun wan to carry on...left me myself n i...u told me n the others tt u realli love me alot...veri much...if tts the case...can we patch? If without me beside u this yr...u will be more sad...u will have worry...me too...i said after ur o lvl then we patch...but then i tot of u...u nid me...n i nid u...jus like ur mum nid ur dad n ur dad oso nid ur mum...its the same...i will cherish the chance u gave me...if u think i m not doing well enuff...tell me...i will do it btr...not tell me to break...n change myself alone...u said tt u will not leave me alone bhind...i trust u...but wad r u doing now...u broke promise...ya...but can u dun break this promise?jus this n i m happy...i m veri fan...veri scared...dun w8 until i change ler then go back to u...go thru this period wif me?help me...change me...i will do my veri best to change...i nid u to be wif me crystal...pls... Darling...i realli love u...can u pls 4give me? 爱你1314...我会好好珍惜你的...请你相信我多一次？我只要多一个机会。。。一个能让我证明一切的机会，我会好好把握它。。。CRYSTAL TAN KAI LI...我爱你。。。

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
11:38 PM

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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

todae...8th month anniversary...bad day...nvrm...dun sae sch de things...outside oso got things...ltr meeting her...pass the sumthing then jiu go off...i think so...so is like...duno la...duno wad to post oso...by rite todae 8th month shuld go out play...have fun...but then, no mood...of course...mus at least pei her rite? but then i m oso not going to pei her...so...i think i coming home after tt...ok la...dun tok abt this ler la...recently going to quit smoking...1st dae was gd...1 stick nia...yst was the 2nd dae...smoke 3 sticks...todae? haven...not going to smoke jus bcos i xing qing bu hao...n i m telling u all...i nv smoke doesn't cause me to become angry...is bcos of sumthing...nvrm...i dun wish to add on ler...so...next time the post ba...

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
12:53 AM

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Monday, July 30, 2007

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
9:24 PM

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Your Love Type: ISFP

The Artist In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions. For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings. Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener. However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes. Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ

What's Your Love Type?

TuRtlE dIed oN TOdAe.
9:20 PM

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